Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Could it be the weather?

My heart has been heavy these past days.  I'd like to blame it on one or two things, but these things usually come from a basket full of small things collected from corners and under beds.  Before long they are spilling out into the hall and jamming up the closet doors.  Someone has to pick them up!

Maybe I'm sad.  A lot of things in my life are changing.  A few things I WANT to change are clogging up the drains and making me frustrated.  

I suppose it all just needs time.  And I need to settle into a new rhythm of accepting the things I cannot change.  For the time being, anyway.

Today is October 27.  In eight months I suspect the waiting and the games will all be over.  In terms of a lifetime, a short time to wait indeed.


Shelley said...

i can identify with the feeling you've expressed, as i've been there myself many, many times.

patience has to be the hardest virtue of all. if only we could access that fabled crystal ball to show us exactly how it will all turn out - then we can get on with the present.

and the present gets on in its way. i find things go much easier when i don't fight so hard to maintain control.

i think you know that you've been teetering on the edge of change for a long time... even if you can't see it at the moment, you more than likely need this time to get ready :)

Smarts said...

I completely agree with you that things go easier when we don't fight them. Despite my head knowledge of this, part of me wants to rail against this wisdom. I'm hoping I will come to my sense soon.

I want the time to be now! And I'm having a bit of a temper about to be quite frank!

Thanks for your note, it is appreciated. xo

bein good to me said...

I can definitely empathize with you on this feeling of a heavy heart as I feel the exact same way right now. Just not feelin' super ecstatic about where I'm at right now and feeling like I'm just playing a waiting game right now, but for what I'm not sure...
Sending joyful thoughts to you today.