Wednesday, May 18, 2011

More Light, Less Shadows

I've been blogging for a long time.  About 7 years.  My first blog I deleted in a fit of anger and insecurity.  I regret that, it was a dumb thing to do but at least I learned a lesson from the impulsivity of doing so.  I began this current blog, In My Element, 5 years ago just as we were making the move from Halifax to Remote Rural Town, Alberta.

Thinking back on that time, I really needed the change.  In those moments I didn't know how to make the changes necessary on the inside without taking myself to a new physical landscape.  And it was so good!  I spent the first 6 months voraciously reading books by Marianne Williamson, Depak Chopra, Wayne Dyer and Eckart Tolle.   While life will always ebb and flow, expand and contract; those days really set the stage for some incredible personal growth that has ultimately taught me to nurture myself and live more fully from my heart.

Today my heart is open.  I want to invite people in to share in it.  But I find my heart is not so open as to be completely fearless.  This blog has been a sacred place for me.  Not unlike rosary beads that I move through my hands, contemplating and praying for wisdom.  I am however, ready for a new space in life with more light and less shadows to hide in.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

In Celebration

In celebration of my upcoming adventure I've started a new blog...  Hope you will come by and take a look!

4 hundred and 25

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Another Day for Happiness

So despite yesterday not being my best day in a while... I did recover quickly and live to embrace another day.  So what is making me happy today?  This!

Chicken Ark - Side Off

It might sound a little crazy but I've been dreaming of having chickens and collecting my own organic eggs.  This one is designed for urban chicken cooping.  How cool is that!  I think I almost have Jeremy convinced to build it for me!

Live life in whatever direction makes you happy!  Maybe we should all free range a little more!

PS ~ The photo will link you up with all you ever wanted to know about urban cooping!

Friday, May 13, 2011

Can a Good Down Dog Save Your Life?

Living this far north (almost at the 60th parallel) one mixed blessing we have this time of year is daylight.  Right now it is light until almost 11 o'clock at night.  There are many things I LOVE about these long days.  With all of those 'loves' aside, getting kids to bed at a reasonable hour becomes the impossible task.

Today I got to enjoy (sarcasm) a whole class full of children who had, by Wednesday of this week, already exceeded the functional limited of exhaustion.  Now I am by nature an optimistic person.  But even I could not stand in the face of such overwhelming circumstances.

I came home at the end of this day completely tapped out, nothing left to give.  I laid on the couch for a while and watched two DVR'd episodes of Oprah, thinking the whole time that I hated her and I couldn't tolerate her success or her money or all of the eff'ing good she has done in the world.  Most days I quite adore the woman.   But today all I could see was the contrast of her world and mine.  On one show she was giving people make-overs.  If you could have seen me at the time, I'm sure you would have thought me worthy of a nomination.

Then I thought about how poorly I was handling my state of mind.  Which just made me feel worse.

Truth is, there are times in life when we just feel low.  We get thrown off balance unsuspectingly and find that our rebound muscle isn't flexing.  For me, these circumstances are almost always born out of fatigue and overwhelment.  In such moments it is easy to open the gates and allow a flood of negative memories and emotions to come rushing in.  Much easier in fact than to do the thing that is best for us, and that is to stop the deluge in its tracks.  The pity party dress is not so pretty.

So I turned off the TV and folded up the blanket I'd been hiding under.  Reassured myself I'm not really fat.  And went and found my yoga mat.

Sometimes you just have to reach in a better feeling direction.  Sometimes turning the corner is all the work you really have to do, the rest just shows up.

Saturday, May 07, 2011

The Cause of Unwanted Things

I thought this was so very powerful!  I trust the listening will also empower you.