Thursday, April 29, 2010

Giving & Receiving

This week for me, has been all about asking and receiving. And as I'm sitting here on the edge of the weekend it struck me just how difficult it has been ~ even though my asking has led to much receiving.

Husband is away on a timber framing course (construction) in the southern Rockies. He's a carpentry hobbyist and this is a personal course he's been wanting to do for a long time. So on the one hand, while I'm very happy that he is pursuing his interests, it has left me at home with my feet as my only mode of transportation. Well, my feet and the kindness of friends.

I do miss him but even more I think I miss the freedom of mobility to which I am accustomed. Can't say that I have enjoyed being in a position of having to ask for and rely on other people. It has left me feeling trapped and a bit frustrated.

So that little verse that says... better to give than receive... I'm not so sure. Giving is a power position. It is easy to control what you give and who you give it to. Asking on the other hand puts you in a place of vulnerability, trusting in the universe to provide for your needs. So I will concede that it is easier to give but I've learned more this week in receiving.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

It's My B-DAY!!!

Today is my 38th birthday. And I feel beyond blessed!

So I'm going to take today to count and recount the many ways I am loved by others and am a contributor to the sweetness of life in and around me. :)

The day you were born is an important day. It is the day your life began, which in itself is a miracle that we take for granted. It is the start to an incredibly personal journey that will lead you in circles of varying degrees between the desert and the promised land. Because we need both to strengthen and fortify us in different ways.

On this, my 38th anniversary to myself, I'm giving thanks for ~ physical strength to move and play and ~ spiritual and mental endurance to seek answers to my problems and embrace ideas and philosophies that open my understanding of the world. These abilities bring such joy that I at times undone by them.

Right in this moment even, there are many things coming together and making lovely bows of loose ends that have been dangling. But I give thanks for both the bow and the dangler that seems to have no pairing. Because we all know what it feels like to be that end ~ to be your whole self out on that limb.

There are many people that make or break our journeying. I try my best to stay the course with those that make and run like hell from those that are the other. In this life I have a husband that loves me so thoroughly we often forget where the other ends/begins. I have a bestie whose shoulder I can cry on and laugh with at a moments notice (she lives right across the street and we've been joined at the heart since the first day we met in 1995). A travel buddy that will go anywhere at any time (so long as we stay in a 4 star or higher). And a family that helps me discover and rediscover who I am at all stages of this wonderful life.

Thank you for being a part of all the love in my heart. xo

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Best run yet. 5K!!!! But pretty sure my hip-flexors are in need of a couple of days rest.

Thursday, April 08, 2010


Today I wrote all of my homeroom report cards and ran 4km! Tomorrow I'm going to tackle the taxes. Looking forward to clearing a few other small items off my plate. 11 weeks to summer break. WooHoo!!!!

Monday, April 05, 2010

Easter Theme

Eat, eat, eat and then eat some more. Looking forward to going home and putting an end to this craziness!