Sigh of the contented...

I can feel myself being called. The voice is getting clearer, as though I am getting closer. But for now, I keep paying the bills and showing up everyday. This will not always be the case.

Namaste.

Chain Re-act-ion and Knee-jerk Reflexes

There is a softness to life that is easier felt when times are rough than when they are grand. Much to be said for getting cut off at the knees from time to time and crawling back into the shell of uncertainty and humility. Retreat so as to sort through it all and take a breather from the race (where people only ever get up go to work and then rush home to watch crime and drama unfold on cnn).

Inside the shell the mind gets quiet. The radio gets turned off for a while. Sometimes the lights even go out. Echos of what someone said that was unkind and unwarranted bounce in crazy directions from the curvature of the walls. You try your best to get out of the way so that it would stop smacking you over and over, after all hasn't enough damage been done? And you wonder what to do. What to say. How to respond.

Anger is a natural. The easy way.

But you've been on another path. Huddled in your turtle pose you wonder who hurt them that they should hurt you? Your anger begins to dissolve. It's energy has been wounded. The corners of your heart loosen. An image of their pain replaces your own.

You feel only. So much so that you can't quite figure it all out. You weep for your own relief, that you need not fight that which has fought against you. This knowing lights your eyes with strength and you have gained a new knowing. A thresh hold has been broken through.

Joy finds you through unusual and unexpected circumstances.


“In a controversy, the instant we feel anger, we have already ceased striving for truth and have begun striving for ourselves.” Abraham Heschel

The Intention Experiment

"You just have to do your own thing, no matter what anyone says. It's your life!" Ethan Embry

I've been reading an interesting book called The Intention Experiment by Lynne McTaggart. It is a synopsis of research done over the last 30 years in the field of quantum physics. One of the areas that has really intrigued me is the relationship between time and our thoughts.

Very important to the study of quantum physics is the Zero Point Field. To crudely paraphrase, the Zero Point Field exists at absolute zero, the temperature at which scientist once considered all movement to cease. Come to find out this is not the case! In fact subatomic particles continue to move and take on a synchronicity, in which they begin to act as a single organism. Technology has been able to make use of lasers that are able to squeeze this ZPF, so much so that it creates negative energy, also known as exotic matter. It is apparently well accepted by QPs that such matter can bend space-time!

Based on the research in this book, our thoughts could very well be our most valuable resource. And the way we use our thoughts could determine the quality and course of our lives. The idea that intention can mess with the ZPF and the ZPF can transcend space-time has actually been proven in experiments of retro causation - so what you are thinking not only influences your present and your future but is not bound by space and time and can therefore effect your past which is now playing out in your present. It is a little much to take in! All research and experiments have been carried out by ivy league universities and prestigious research facilities around the world.

Something else in the book I found quite profound was this statement: "The possibility is that all information in the universe is available to use at every moment, and time exists as one giant smeared-out present...There is also the possibility that at the most fundamental layer of our existence there is no such thing as sequential time. Pure energy as it exists at the quantum level does not have time or space, but exists as a vast continuum of fluctuating charge. We, in a sense are time and space. When we bring energy to conscious awareness through the act of perception, we create separate objects that exist in space through a measured continuum. By creating time and space, we create our own separateness and indeed our own time." (171)

I have long known the value and importance of my thoughts. I have experienced them in powerful and life changing ways. This book took me into a new reality of the power of the mind.
I would highly recommend this book to anyone who is interested in healing or the new buzz of manifestation. A worthwhile and highly informative read.

“Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Appreciate your friends. Continue to learn. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.”

Mary Anne Radmacher

you know the kind of day... the one for which you should be given a medal of honor for just getting through it without harming someone else!


that was so me today.

i have decided to celebrate my accomplishment with wine.